having the bravery to go to college when his dad and brother were doing everything to get him to give up on his aspirations for his future? CAPABLE
having the gumption to stand up to his father’s shitty behavior? CAPABLE
dying after leading a group of 23-year-olds, comforting and encouraging them, figuring out ava despite being the person he’d spent the most time with and worried over the most, knocking jake out, and only dying because he didn’t want to kill? CAPABLE
being able to put aside his differences with bela, who had shot him, who had taken dean as her date and stuck him with some woman who groped him and made him generally feel really gross, saving her when dean wouldn’t have tried, offering his solution, which worked? CAPABLE
You don’t, I say, you don’t owe me squat, let’s just get going, let’s just get gone, but he’s
keeps saying I owe you, says Your shoes are filling with your own damn blood,
you must want something, just tell me, and it’s yours.
(Wishbone by Richard Siken)
4/30. one angel
Sorry if it’s a bit chilly. Most people think I burn hot, it’s actually quite the opposite.