keep in mind i have never dated someone before so hear me out.
OOOKAY, so there’s this boy at school and i have been friends with him since like 7th grade. i dont like him like him. he is a chill guy you know, plus he watches spn, doctor who, and sherlock (no he doesn’t have a tumblr due to all the gay porn haha). earlier this year we started to talk more during lunch and i started to think “hmm maybe he has a crush on me, oh wait nobody does.” which didn’t really phase me then.
yesterday he started to hug me each time he saw me in the hall between classes. this is a huge deal to me since i have barely any friends none of which greet me when switching classes. now i thought oh hes just being friendly because hes that kind of person you know.
but today dear lord i don’t know what to think i am so confused.
i was talking to my friend and brother in the library before the first bell and he comes up behind me and hugs me. but this time he didn’t let go. his hands were around my waist and i did not know what to think. he held it like that until my brother said he knew i had a boyfriend (pshhhhh) and a teacher told him to get off me and move. he seriously stood on me like that for at least 2 minutes.
later on he asks if it was okay to hug me because now that he though about it holding a hug, down low, for so long with just a friend was kinda weird. i told him it was okay b/c i didn’t want him to know i was extremely uncomfortable, or at least not yet, and didn’t want to hurt his feelings or something.
then at the end of the day he hugs me and slipped something underneath my headband which i didn’t notice until someone pointed out on the bus of course. he gave me his phone number and drew a heart beside it. i don’t know what to do and im flipping the fuck out because people don't like me. no one ever has liked me. even i don’t like me.
i just don’t understand. how do i tell him i don’t like him that way..?